Nobody listens

No one sees. No one responds. This is what I have turned my life into. Turned everyone off from me. Treating those I love like garbage has led to this absurdly misguided attempt at life. Too bad I only get one chance at it. It is unfair but what am I going to do? I have no powers to try again from 10 years ago. And if there is anyone with those powers to reset time it wouldn't be allowed. I have tried to be positive and follow my dream but I have nothing but judgment and critical commwnts for everything I do and everywhere I go. I don't even mean to it just comes out so nasty automatically. No wonder I have no close friends to confide in. They must have figured out long ago that I was not any fun to hang around. Now I have no career and no friends to speak of, except a few from my hometown who seem to see past the negative pretentious judgmental person i have become. Most people around are much more teachable and willing to leaen than i am. Maybe that is why it is impossible to be satisfied.